Day 3

Such a nice day out today iam sitting outside with my daughter Emma. Iam playing on my computer and she is playing on her fake one.She wants to be just like her mom and that makes me so proud.I just hope she feels the same way after all this is over with.Iam going try try and spend as much time with my kids now before it gets worse or i do treatments.And its realy hard to do considering i can't stay awake.I guess right now its better to sleep so i don't have to be awake to think about all this.My god its even hard to say the C word.Starting tomorrow i got to start making all my doctors appt and getting test done.Even thinking about making the appts is hard i guess there isnt anything easy about this except all the support i have been getting is just amazing.But i still feel alone no matter how much i have.well iam going to try and update as much as i can so i can look back after this journey is over because this will make me a stronger person.

Cancer

Well i woke up today with alot of weight on my shoulders but i decided iam going to take this weekend off and enjoy it with my kids.I will start all my doctor appts starting monday.I was diagnosed with throat cancer yesterday the doctor says i have a tumor on the back of my throat and it is also eating away at the roof of my mouth.This is one of the scariest thing i have had to go through but iam blessed it is curable with treatments.I decided i was going to blog my experance going through this so that way i can rember and learn from it.My biggest fears as of now are my 4 children they are my life and iam worried how this will effect them.Well iam going to try and keep this up to date as much as i can.Thank to all my friends and family even my facebook friends that have showed me support.

new

just started this blog today hope it helps me get some of my feelings out and help me able to express myself andyone have any useful tips iam more then open to it